New

Life is…New



My very first blog ended with a prayer that God would give me the opportunity to carry another baby and to hold him or her. He has answered my prayer. In October a baby girl will join our family! We are thrilled, but I’ll be honest with you, when I first found out about our miracle I wasn’t excited – I didn’t feel anything. After losing two babies I was too scared to get excited or begin thinking of our family growing. I had it in my head that after we got past the first trimester everything would be okay, I could begin thinking of our future, and get excited. Then one Sunday at church there were two songs about how life comes from God, and I had this wave of realization….1) Anything can happen at any time. Three months isn’t the all okay – three weeks old, two years old – no number is a guarantee. And even more sobering 2) I had not even thanked God for answering my prayer! My mindset changed, and we are ecstatic to meet our little girl!

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Celebrations

Life is…Celebrations

Today marks Chris and I’s 10 year anniversary. I have had it in my mind for a while that we were going to do something big to celebrate our 10^th anniversary, so I came up with a plan. When that fell thru I went to Plan B. When plans B, C, and D also fell thru I just sat and cried. Then I let myself have a pity party for about a week.

Obviously I wasn’t focusing on the good in our lives. I put so much emphasis on this one day of our ten years, when it’s more than just one day. It took 3652 days of choosing to love to get to this “special day”. Many times we put so much emphasis on a day that no matter how great it is it can’t live up to our expectations. Birthdays, anniversaries, Mother’s Day, and especially weddings. I was thinking back to our wedding – I loved the day – it was perfect! Well, it obviously wasn’t…here’s a picture of butterflies that were supposed to be released after the ceremony.

Chris and I bought the kit a few weeks before. They came as larvae, we built the boxes, fed them, and they were ready for our wedding day. Chris was in charge of brining the butterflies, which he did, but he couldn’t get inside, so he left them in the truck and kind of forgot about them for a while. Chris still promises they weren’t dead, but they did not want to fly either! I think one or two butterflies actually flew away. It really was a funny sight and great memory! I knew our wedding day wouldn’t be perfect, and I knew that the ceremony, the day, didn’t matter as much as focusing on our upcoming marriage. Somehow I forgot about that at our 10 year anniversary. I got so wrapped up in the number, and if I’m honest I got wrapped up in being proud that we had made it to this “momentous milestone” in our marriage. That’s never a good place to be…giving yourself all the credit when you don’t deserve it.
“God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.” ~James 4:6 and 1 Peter 5:5
So 10 years will come and go without fanfare, and I’m okay with that. Maybe we’ll take a big vacation for our 12 ½  year anniversary!

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